weary soul.

haven't been upating this for a long time. much is going on right now. things good and bad.. happy and sad. i just finished my first ever semester as a graduate school student, well, not technically, as i still have some papers due on saturday which by the way, i have not been working on. :P maybe it's because it's summer again and my heart says "go and have fun". :D i've been to a get-away weekend with my family in batangas (that made me miss my jareie milk) so much. it was really fun reunting with everyone in the clan especially with my loveable cousins.

hmm, yesterday (tuesday, 06apr) was kind of a tough day.well, tough is not the right word, maybe "long" will do. :P i had to drive my sister all the way to her graduation rites and drive back home, only to drive my tita elvie to the hospital. i waited for her and my cousin for almost five hours, not allowing me to join my friends to a swimming party. as if that wasn't disappointing enough, i learned also that my tita is now on her stage four of her bone cancer. the doctors said she has until june to live na lang. :( i cried a lot last night begging Jesus to ease her from too much pain. i promised Him to not question and to surrender to His will.

i was in a meeting this afternoon in makati, a friend have invited me over. i kinda thought it was a job they were trying to offer me, i was even close to canceling the appointment out when i thought that it would be unprofessional to cancel a commitment the last minute after she blocked the day for me.so there, i went, and i was kind of disappointed thinking that i wasted my time. :P well, not that much pala, i somehow learned something out of the seminar and enjoyed listening to the speakers. i met a lot of thomasians there too.most of which are graduates already and are older than me. 2/3 of them actually knows me and that is so surprising.they were not even from the same course as i was taking back in college.

i was on my way home at around 10pm when my mom called me, asking me to come home immediately.she says that my tita can HARDLY breathe and they need me to come home as soon as possible because they are going to buy this oxygen tank for her. when i was home already, i went to her house (which happens to be beside ours) and payed her a visit.it crashed my heart when i saw her lying, crying and helpless. :( i really wish there was something i could do for her. :( fond moments with her suddenly flashed back into my memory.. i was close to crying, but i saw her holding a rosary, trying to pray with all her strength, asking Him to help her. :( i was reminded right away that there is God that i could always talk to and run to for comfort.

friends have been telling me to pray even harder and ask God for a miracle.. i say i do not want a miracle anymore, i just want her to be spared from pain and stay a little longer so i would have the chance to show her that i appreciate all the things she has done for me and all the times she was there to love, comfort and protect me. i just want a chance to show her how much i love her. :(

**please pray for her.