paparazzi. :)

We are the crowd,
We're c-coming out
Got my flash on it's true
Need that picture of you
It's so magical
We'd be so fantastical

Leather and jeans a watch on my wrist,
Not sure what it means,
But this photo of us
It don't have a price
Ready for those flashing lights,

Cause you know that baby i
Im your biggest fan
I'll follow you until you love me
Papa-paparazzi,
Baby there's no other superstar
You know that i'll be your Papa-paparazzi
Promise i'll be kind,
But i won't stop until that boy is mine
Baby you'll be famous
Chase you down until you love me
Papa-paparazzi

I'll be your girl Backstage at your show,
Velvet ropes and guitars,
Yeah cause you'll know
I'm staring between the sets
Eyeliner and cigarettes
Shadow is burnt
Yellow dance and return
My lashes are dry
But with teardrops I cry
It don't have a price
Loving you is cherry pie

'Cause you know that baby I
Im your biggest fan
I'll follow you until you love me
Papa-paparazzi,
Baby there's no other superstar
You know that i'll be your Papa-paparazzi
Promise i'll be kind,
But i won't stop until that boy is mine
Baby you'll be famous
Chase you down until you love me
Papa-paparazzi

Real good(We dance in the studio)
Snap, snapped(That xxxx on the radio)
Don't stop boy, rewind
We'll blast it but we'll still have fun!

i loove. :)

ooops! ;)

Stephy took the "Why do people Hate You?" quiz and got the result: They're JEALOUS..
They're JEALOUS: you've got the class, the looks and the brains to make every guy/girl stop dead in their tracks. people wish they had your HOT bod. appreciate the hatred and keep rocking out.

o815o9 - UAAP - JT day. :)

got GLUED again. :)

o815o9 - big dome.

UST vs FEU

with yiam, myl and ellai.

met them at aroud 1pm at starbucks (again). purchased our patron tickets. had lunch at wendy's. :) went inside the dome at around 3pm, just in time for the cheerdance exhibition of UP and NU.

it was "game time" for the tigers at around 4pm. my JT wasn't part of the first 5. funny, when he was about to substitute a player, i smiled and as i was about to clap for him, "DUMAGUNGDONG ang buong bigdome sa kilig" bcoz of his substitution. grr. fine! *cla na nga ang fan! beeh. :P

the game was fun! :) feu won, 7pts (if i remember it right).

*been looking at GLUED pics (FS). my transition (physically) from o731 - o815 is surprising (given na, antok na antok ako ng time na yan (o815)).

it pays to be happy and inspired. thanks, JT. :)

to my GLUED (yiam. myl. patsi. pao. stace. ruth.) girls, thanks for constantly reminding me that things are gonna fall into its proper place and that everything's gonna be alright - coz yea, everything did. :)

let go, heal. :)

Stephy got a message that on this day, God wants her to know...
... that it is time to finally forgive yourself.

You've carried the guilt, the shame for long enough. You've kept your wounds open for long enough. The time has to come to let go, to heal....

Keep the lessons and let the pain heal.

colourblind :]

Feelin blue,
while Im trying to forget the feeling that I miss you
Feelin green,
when the jealousy swells and it wont go away in dreams
Feelin yellow,
Im confused inside
A little hazy but mellow when I feel your eyes on me

Feelin fine! sublime!
When that smile of yours creeps into my mind
Oh oh

Nobody told me youd feel so good
Nobody said youd be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
Youre the light, youre the light
When I close my eyes
Im colour blind
You make me colour blind

Feelin red,
when you spend all your time with your friends and not me instead
Feelin black,
when I think about all the things that I feel I lack
Feelin jaded,
when its not gone right
All the colours have faded, then I feel your eyes on me

Feelin fine! sublime!
When that smile of yours creeps into my mind
Mm mm

Nobody told me youd feel so good
Nobody said youd be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
Youre the light, youre the light
When I close my eyes
Im colour blind
You make me colour blind

Blinded by the light you shine,
the colours fade completely
Blinded by you every time,
I feel your smile defeat me
Im colour blind
I just cant deny this feeling

wishlist :)

5. barbie doll :)

4. armani wristwatch

3. lv monogram multicolore shoe :)

4. porsche i love!

1. JERIC TENG :) :) :)

G.I. JOE

aug09 (sunday). watched G.I. JOE :D

(channing tatum was asked why he did not settle for the airforce)

"i want to be on the ground, on the battle. not fly over them!" :)

"FEAR is a good motivation"

- agree! :)

love the movie. :)

when all else fails, I DON'T :D

Stephy got a message that on this day, God wants her to know...
... that when the sun rises, it rises for you.

Yes, for you. Just for you. Only for you. You are it, everything, the whole universe with all the billion galaxies and stars. The separateness you feel is only a mask you have put on to enjoy this human form. Under the mask, your shape is All.

FUNtastic moment.

aug08. araneta coliseum

2pm - adu vs nu (nu won)

4pm - up vs ust (ust won)

not planned again. woke up to yiam's text message, "ate. ngaion na tayo magdate". we did not really know what to do until we both agreed that watching the UAAP will be something fun. :P and yes, it really was. :)

met her at starbucks, gateway at around 1pm. left after a while to purchase tickets. as we are on our way back to gateway to have some good snacks, a tiger called me up and said that he has tickets for us - yea ryt. tsk. haha

as we enter the coliseum and submit ourselves and our things for the security check, it wasn't unusual to hear comments such as "ang gaganda nyo naman" and "gaganda tlga ng tga-ust". haha! ehem! we knew all along that the day was gonna be something beautiful.

during the game, there was this upian who caught my attention because of the way she dolled up herself for the game, and then, boom! yiam whispered, "ate! ayun tayo sa tv oh"! the heck. haha! i instantly looked at the players and damn, they were all looking at the big screen (which shows the exact frame/scene being shown on tv over studio 23) and then after some seconds, looked at me - smiling. okray girl on the loose! :D

funny both yiam and i declared ourselves "singles-no-more" after the game. thanks to jeric teng and clark bautista. haha! :P

love the day. love the fun. love the game! love the players! love the league! love my yiam!
love and miss UST so much!

i cheer: oh! get that boy! :D

jeric teng of the ust growling tigers! :)

a conversation with an EX.

1.Hi how are ya?
never better. :)

2. Hey! You wanna go to the mall?!
soree. i have better things to do. :P

3. I LOVE U..
aww, sweetie. dnt worry, makakamove on ka din. :P (lol)

4. DO u want some cookies?
are those chunky chocolate chip cookies from redribbon? sure. :D

5.Will you take a picture with me?!
sure. :D

6.Help me in my homework!
ok, money down. :P

7. Here's my gift to you...
thank u. :D

8. Let's just be textmates
eew. then wat? eb? hahaha =))

9. Do you want me to buy you an ipod?
i have na eh. :P iba nlang :P haha

10.Let's sit together in the bus
i only ride the bus during scul related activities. :P

11. Hi baby.
huh?

12.Your still handsome/beautiful!
i know, ryt? haha

13.I still LOVE you!
i still do too. but it's not like im stil INLOVE with u.

14.Do you have new boyfriend/ girlfriend?
yes. do u have any regrets?? (*boom)

15. Do you love me?
stil do. but not inlove with u anymore.

100 truths

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. last beverage = water
2. last phone call = mom
3. last text message = japs
4. last song you listened to = hailo
5. last time you cried = a minute ago

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice = yes
7. been cheated on = yes
8. kissed someone & regretted it = no
9. lost someone special = no
10. been depressed =yes
11. been drunk and threw up = nope

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. yellow
13. green
14.

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend = yes
16. Fallen out of love = no
17. Laughed until you cried = yes
18. Met someone who changed you = glued
19. Found out who your true friends were = certainly
20. Found out someone was talking about you = yea. :P
21. Kissed anyone on your fb friend's list =yes

GENERAL:
22. How many people on your fb friends list do you know in real life = almost all of them
24. Do you have any pets = yes
25. Do you want to change your name = no
26. What did you do for your last birthday = went out with family and then with diff sets of friends
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = sleeping. yea, who'd believe? haha
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = better days
30. Last time you saw your Mother = a while ago
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = inhibitions
32. What are you listening to right now = none
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom = yes
34. What's getting on your nerves right now = none
35. Most visited webpage = fb
37. Nicknames = steph. tep. tepi. stephy. teps.
38. Relationship Status = single
39. Zodiac sign = libra
40. He or She? = she
41. Elementary? = scqc
42. Middle School = n/a
43. High school/College = scqc; UST
44. Hair colour = black
45. Long or short = med
46. Height = 5'3
47. Do you have a crush on someone? = none
48: What do you like about yourself? = everything - even the parts that hurt :P
49. Piercings = ears.
50. Tattoos = none
51. Righty or lefty= lefty

FIRSTS :
53. First piercing = ears
54. First best friend = hazelle&dy
55. First sport you joined = vball
56. First vacation = can't remember this one
58. First pair of trainers = ?

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating = no
60. Drinking = no
61. I'm about to = take a break (from? haha)
62. Listening to = none
63. Waiting for = nothin' :P (literally and figuratively)

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? = yes (i can always adopt)
65. Get Married? = i dunno :c
66. Career? = starting

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes? = eyes
68. Hugs or kisses= hugs
69. Shorter or taller= taller
70. Older or Younger = older
71. Romantic or spontaneous = both
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = both
73. Sensitive or loud = neither
74. Hook-up or relationship = neither
75. Trouble maker or hesitant = neither

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger = hell no
77. Drank hard liquor = no
78. Lost glasses/contacts = no
79. Sex on first date = migosh never.
80. Broken someone's heart = maybe
81. Had your own heart broken = pass
82. Been arrested = never.
83. Turned someone down = pass
84. Cried when someone died = yes
85. Fallen for a friend? = no

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself = not at this point. :/
87. Miracles = yes
88. Love at first sight = thumbs down
89. Heaven = yes
90. Santa Claus = when I was a kid
91. Kiss on the first date = no
92. Angels = yes :)

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
95. Did you sing today? = yes
96. Ever cheated on somebody? = not at all
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go, and why? = 2years ago. have to change something i really regret now.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? = Christmas! It’s always a good thing to have it down pat and relive past Christmasses
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? = again - yes. :c
100. Posting this as 100 truths? = yes

God's message for me - o9o5

Stephy got a message that on this day, God wants her to know...
... that every little part of you is magical.

Yes, even the parts that hurt, even the ones that are feeling disease right now. It's alright to love what is in pain. More than alright, that's exactly where your love is needed the most. So why not touch that part that hurts and smile at it, at yourself through it, and whisper: ''I love you.''

God's message for me - o8o3

Stephy got a message that on this day, God wants her to know...
... that God has an important purpose for you, and made everything possible for you to succeed.That's not to say it's an easy purpose, or a convenient one. It might very well seem hard or even impossible, but it only looks that way. The truth is that one day you will look back and see how all the pieces fit together. And how your life has been a complete and utter success.

God's message for me - o8o2

Stephy got a message that on this day, God wants her to know...
... that it's your heart that knows who loves you, not your ears or eyes.Listen to the words, and you can be fooled. Look at the actions, and you can be fooled. You are loved only when you feel loved. Who makes your heart soar now? Well, what are you waiting for?

UP [by the saturdays].

This is the crossing at the main intersection,
Up is were we go from here,
Finest selection,
This can take us anywhere,
I don't want protection,
Life is better of the line, ine, ine...

I'm ready for the lift up,
Keep steady beat Coz I'm ready for the big jump,
Keep up with me,
If you lose me then you know,
You're just a bit too slow, I only go up, up.
I'm ready to be in control
And the ground isn't good enough for me,
I know where to find what I want and I'm gonna keep on,
Keep on, up, up.

No turns now,
We're going straight,
You better hold on tight,
Coz if you fall you're on your own
Coz I'm gonna go on,
No, no, no turns now.
This is the final call for all destination,
This is were you're in or out,
No hesitation,
This is not the time for doubts,
Make your decision,
Are you on or off the line?, ine, ine...

This is the crossing at the main intersection,
Up is were we go from here,
Finest selection,
This can take us anywhere,
I don't want protection,
Life is better of the line, ine, ine..
(Ooh)I'm ready for the lift up,
Keep steady beat
Coz I'm ready for the big jump,
Keep up with me,
If you lose me then you know,
You're just a bit too slow, I only go up, up.

finally, His message. :P

Stephy got a message that on this day, God wants her to know...
... that it's your heart that knows who loves you, not your ears or eyes.Listen to the words, and you can be fooled. Look at the actions, and you can be fooled. You are loved only when you feel loved. Who makes your heart soar now? Well, what are you waiting for?

bob ong's message for me. :P

"bakit ka magpaparamdam sa taong hindi marunong makiramdam? wag kang magpakatanga sa taong hindi marunong mag pahalaga. matuto kang sumuko at mang-iwan kung lagi ka rin namang nasasaktan. imbis na magtanong ka ng "hindi pa ba sapat?", bakit hindi mo nalang kalimutan ang lahat? kung alam mong binabalewala ka na, tanggapin mong ganun na talaga siya. wag kang magpapadala sa mga salitang "SORRY" at "HINDI KO KAYANG MAWALA KA". KUNG TOTOO YUN, PAPATUNAYAN NILA."

- bob ong

**this message was sent to me by seven amazingly different people today. :P it's just soo meant to be :)

a day with my GLUED angels.

"a friend will tell you things that you don’t wanna tell yourself."

it wasn't planned - at all.

i had to see someone coz i was so depressed and kamyl was the first person i had in mind so i rushed to e.rod to meet her. while on my way, i texted patsii and yiam (who skipped class just to see me) to ask if they could and would like to join us.

INSTANT.

super bonding. super daldal. super concerned. super kwentos. super fun. super laugh. super lait. super sweet. super touching. super friends. :] love my glued angels, big time. :]