stephy is singing someday by nina.

Someday you're gonna realize
One day you'll see this through my eyes
By then I won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere
Even if I cared

I know
You don't really see my worth
You think you're the last guy on Earth
Well I've got news for you
I know I'm not that strong
But it won't take long
Won't take long

Cause someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, I wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day I'll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday, someday

Right now
I know you can tellI'm down, and I'm not doing well
But one day these tears
They will all run dry
I won't have to cry
Sweet goodbye

Cause someday,
someone's gonna love me
The way, I wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day I'll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday,I know someone's gonne be there

Someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, I wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day I'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday, someday

july ender. :)

the people i love the most. the people behind who and what i am today. :)

uaap-26jul

"they say we can only beat UP. but the question is, can they beat UP?"

- my archer friend (to the ateneo blue eagles)

congrats UST tigers and UP maroons! :D

sleepover wth buddy :]

21 July 2009

"sana bata nlang ulit tayo.. ung tipong gummy bears lng, mawawala na un prob".

"tara kain tayo gummy bears!"

23July2009

sleepover with buddy (kamyl) and jareie at our house. haha!

had a yoshinoya dinner. watched tayong dalawa and the wedding together.

invaded the internet ;)

kiddie party followed after. lots of gummy bears. gumballs. marshmallows. chocolate chip cookies. flower candies.

*nic. jep and ten dropped by at around 11pm to give us (me, kamyl and stacey) an icecream treat. :D

kamyl slept at around 3am and had to wake up at around 5 to go to work

as for me, i did not sleep at all. :P haha

lots of laugh. lots of tears. super bonding. love my buddy so much :)

jep's 18th. photos. :P

- the warm welcome (for patsi) :D

- at patsi's place in valenzuela

(with ten, jei, jep, ron, patsi (of course) and kamyl). :P

- lovin' the new and improved lokee. :D

now i buy friends. :P

..on facebook's friends for sale. :D
can't buy shobe&dy. mahal! pero pag iipunan ko kayo! :D haha

happy bday JEP. :]

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY JEP! :D

17julyo9. my day has just begun. :P

woke up at around 7am with jep's txt message:

"salamat lage k andyan ate honeybunchsugarplumpumiyamiyamkin stepi."

haha. as if that wasn't touching enough, he asked me to go with him and meet patricia at mini stop for his breakfast treat. without hesitation, whatsoever, i said "ok" and hurried myself up.

i texted jei and kim too, asked them if they wanna come. after the breakfast, we stayed at kim's place - until it was time for patricia's surprise. :D

heavy rain did not stop neither of us (me and patsii) from wanting to make jep happy on the exact day of his birthday (the treat/party will be tomorrow night). :D and so we went to del monte ave., without even knowing where to go exactly. haha!

quite of adventure for the two of us. but it was fun. and soo worth it. :D

i love jepri. and i love patsy too. i love her for him. i love seeing them together, i've never seen him (jep) so happy ever since i met him. i've never seen him act so maturely. i've never seen him become so jealous over little things. i've never seen him give her "treats" so lovingly. i've never seen him pay their bills. i've never seen him so passionate and intimate in front of us (lokee). i've never seen him so possessive. i've never seen him so excited to meet his girlfriend. i've never seen him so proud - until now that he has her. :D

to jep. happy happy birthday! i love u. and i do wish u stay that happy forever. more years to us!

to my patsii. i love u, too. and thanks for making my little brother so happy!

patsy's surprise that made jep "teary-eyed".

from kamyl. :D

thanks so much buddy! love u! mwah! :D

LSS ;P

Saturday, stepping into the club
The music makes me wanna tell the DJ, tune it up
I feel the energy all around
And my body can't stop moving to the sound

But I CAN TELL THAT YOU'RE WATCHING ME
And YOU'RE PROBABLY GONNA WRITE WHAT YOU DIDN'T SEE
Well, I just need a little space to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy
WHY CAN'T YOU JUST LET ME DO
THE THINGS I WANNA DO
I just wanna be me
I don't understand
WHY WOULD YOU WANNA BRING ME DOWN
I'M ONLY HAVING FUN
I'M GONNA LIVE MY LIFE (BUT NOT THE WAY YOU WANT ME TO)

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
WHY CAN'T THEY BACK UP OFF ME
WHY CAN'T THEY LET ME LIVE
I'm gonna do it my way
TAKE THIS FOR JUST WHAT IT IS

Here we are, back up in the club
People taking pictures
Don't you think they get enough
I just wanna be all over the floor
And throw my hands up in the air to a beat like (what)

I've gotta say respectfully
I would love it if you would take the cameras off of me
Cause I just want a little room to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy

I just need to free my mind (my mind)
Just wanna dance and have a good time (good time)
I'm tired of rumors (rumors)
Followed (followed, followed, followed, followed, followed)
What they want of me
Why can't they (they, they, they, they, they) let me live
Take this for just what it is

extraordinary. :D

boredom strikes.

ABC About You Questions.
A - AVAILABLE: occupied. :p
B - BIRTHDAY: 16 October
C - CRUSHING ON: jake cuenca. mark canlas kim bum.
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: water
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: friends.
F - FAVORITE SONG: a loot.
H - HOMETOWN: quezon city
I - IN LOVE WITH: him.♥
J - JUGGLE: hm?.
K - KILLED SOMEONE: killed something. :P
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: bolinao.
M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: mango and strawberry.
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 5
O - ONE WISH: matupad lhat ng wish ko ;P
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: mom
R- REASON TO SMILE: i have every reason :)
S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: jaiho. haha :P
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 11:30am.
U - UNDERWEAR COLOR: black.
V - VEGETABLE(S): brocs
W - WORST HABIT: certified procatinator
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: had a loot.
Y - YOYOS ARE: toys. :p
Z - ZODIAC SIGN: Libra.

Random Questions About You
Spell your name without vowels: rgn stphn dlmnd crz
Your favorite number: 16
What color do you wear most?: white?
Least favorite color?: wla nman
What are you listening to?: people talking.
Are you happy with your life right now?: of course. :)
What is your favorite class in school?: law and foreign languages.
Who is your best friend: dy, japs, pao, ruth, jas, ranier, kim, jan, chezka ♥
Are you outgoing?: think so.
Can you dance?: yes :)
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth? nope
Can you whistle? yep.
Write with both hands? yes
Cross your eyes?: haha. yea.
Walk with your toes curled?: nope :p

THE DO'S
Do you believe in miracles?: SURE DO.
Do you believe in magic?: sometimes.
Love at first sight?: ewan.
Do you believe in Satan?: satan-filled people :P
Do you know how to swim?: yep.
Do you like roller coasters?: nope. but i don't hate it either
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows?: NO!

THE HAVES
Have you ever been on a plane?: loots of times.
Have you ever asked someone out?: friends
Have you ever been asked out by someone?: you bet.
Have you ever been to the ocean?: of course
Have you ever painted your nails?: yep.

THE WHATS
What is the temperature outside?: dunno
What radio station do you listen to?: wla :P
What was the last thing you bought?: dora the explorer and lightning mcqueen stuffs for ellai and zach. :)
What was the last thing on TV you watched?: tayong dalawa

THE WHOS
Who was the last person you IM'd?: gerbert gecto (haha!)
Who was the last person you took a picture of: ellai
Who was the last person you said I love you too? kamyl.

CRYING SECTION
Ever really cried your heart out?: yep
Ever cried yourself to sleep?: yep.
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: yep.
Ever cried over the opposite sex?: yep.
Do you cry when you get an injury?: haha! yea.
Do certain songs make you cry? sometimes.

HAPPY SECTION
Are you a happy person?: generally, yea :) haha

LOOK AT ME
What is your current hair color?: brownish black.

CURRENTLY WEARING
What shirt are you wearing?: armani.
Shoes?: not wearing one
Necklaces?: n/a

IN A BOY/GIRL
Favorite eye color: brown
Short or long hair: short.
Height: tall :P

HAVE YOU EVER
Been to jail: nope.
Thought about suicide: haha. thought i was gonna die. but not through suicide.
Laughed so hard you cried: haha. yep.
Cried in school: yes.
Done something really stupid that you still laugh about: uh-huh
Seen a dead body: yep.

THIS OR THAT
McDonald's or Burger King: mcdo.
Single or Group Dates: either.
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate.
Strawberries or Blueberries: strawberries.

true. :)

"Do not take another's bad opinion of you as the truth.

Nothing others think or say about you is about you, but rather a reflection of their own reality."

emote. :]

the unlikely trademark.

to be a mean girl, you have to actually possess the Alpha Witch's compulsion for gossip and backstabbing. it's not enough that you want to be on the top, bringing other people down is your game. all mean girls have one thing in common: a secret life. behind the minions, the accessories and the verbal bullying is a kinder-girl who got laughed at when she wet her pants, or a super late bloomer, or a girl who did not get the attention she wants at some point from her family, or a former ugly duckling (:P) - not to say though that all popular girls are mean. in fact, what separates the perfect girl from the perfect pain is just a personality problem, breeding.

**the meanest girls are also the most INSECURE ones. :)
-so, are you a mean girl?? :D

revenge.

is the best revenge...

Something horrible that involves their personal life, family, or friendships?

Knowing that you've outsmarted the other person, and won the battle?

Something bad they will remember for years?

or is it making that someone burst out in pain?

FOR ME, it is knowing that you've made things right. :)

just got a msg from HIM

Stephy got a message from God today...
... you cannot wait anymore. The moment has finally come. You have no choice. You have to take that step now. Now. Not tomorrow, not in an hour, - Now! If anyone else is reading this, they would be confused. But not you. You know exactly what I mean. Do it. Now.

- i will. JAI HO! :)

fb quiz says:

"You don't really care if others think bad of you, and if you do, you don't let it show - you simply cover it up with a smile. You believe that staying true to who you really are is the only way to solve things. You're sweet and kind, and you like to meet new people. Life's never a dull moment with you. You're always trying to find ways to make the most out of a sticky situation. Even if someone tries to bring you down, you hold your head up high and keep walking; people admire you for that."

dts wen il stop lovin u

When winter comes in summer
When there's no more forever
That's when I'll stop loving you
(that's when I'll stop lovingyou)
That's when I'll stop loving you

I'm sure you've heard these words before
And I know it's hard for you to trust them once more
You're afraid it all might end
And a broken heart is scared of breakin' again
But you've gotta believe me
I'm never leavin'
You'll never cry long as I am there
And I will always be there
You will never be without love

When winter comes in summer
When there's no more forever
When lies become the truth
Oh you know then, baby
That's when I'll stop loving
That's when I'll stop loving you

Long as sunlight lights the sky
The light of love will be
Found in these eyes of mine (these eyes of mine)
And I will shine that light for you
You're the only one
I'll ever give this heart to
What I'm trying to say is
Nothing will change this
There'll be no time you won't find me there
Cause I will always be there
You will always have all my love

When winter comes in summer
When there's no more forever
When lies become the truth
Well you know then, baby
That's when I'll stop loving
That's when I'll stop loving you
That's when I'll stop loving you

When this world doesn't turn anymore
When the stars all decide to stop shining
Till then I'm gonna be by your side
I'm gonna be loving you forever
Every day of my life..

this just came to me.

there will always come a point in your life

when you realize who really matters,

who never did and who always will. :)

consider these:

• if you have food, clothes and a home, you are richer than 75% of the world

• if you have some money in the bank, you are among the top 8% of the world's wealthy

• if you woke up healthy this morning, you are more blessed than one million people who will not survive this week

• if you have experienced peace and freedom, you are ahead of five hundred million people in the world

• and if you can actually read this post, you are more blessed than over two billion people who cannot read at all

..now thank God. :)

poker buddies. :]

learning and loving poker. haha :)

even the unavailability to go to angelo's place could not stop

us (me, anj, noy, gerbert, chols) from playing our new found love.

if there's a will, there's a way, there's always facebook. :P

in fairness, i won some.

thanks for sharing some chips gerbert and noy!

thanks sa snacks and sa mga ago go dancers noy! haha

thanks sa cheer bespren!

chols, mega lag.! :)

thanks sa pagcoach khit kalaban ko kayo!

name trivia. :)

---

• REGINA

a name given to me by my dad. it had to start with the letter "R" since his name

is reynaldo. my highschool friends call me by this name.

it means "crown"

• STEPHANIE

a name given to me by my mom. just like dad, it had to start with the letter "S" since her name

is susan. she got this from an article about the prince of monaco's sister, stephanie.

the name literally means "princess"

• DEL MUNDO

my middle name.

the spanish translation for the phrase "of the world"

• CRUZ

my last/sirname

a spanish translation for the word "cross"

**put them all together you will literally get:

"crowned princess of the world, and of the cross" :)

---

• STEPH

my nickname. what most people call me.

• STEPHY

you will know that a person is close to me when he/she calls me by this nickname

• PANIE

what my cousins from manila and childhood friends call me.

• NENG

my batangas nickname (and now i'm reminded of anthony, suddenly)

• PANOT

mom and ruth's term of endearment

(if you even consider that an endearment and not a tease)

• ESTEPANYA

when my mom's starting to get mad because i keep on ignoring her

---

• SWEETIE PIE

by my bestfriend jasmin. i call her my honeybunch. that's because we are known to be a tandem of sweetness.

• STEF

(take note of the spelling) by my best-est friend, dy. :)

• BABE

to my angel jappy :) the word refers to a person who is physically attractive,

beautiful, lovely - a stunner (or so he believes. ehem! ehem!).

• BEEWAN/PANOT

by my bestfriend ruth. came from bananas and pajamas' b1 and b2 since we were

always regarded as twins, a package deal, in good times and bad

(i call her beetu/balot in return)

• SD

by my bestfriend jean. it means "sizzle dizzle" since i am sizzling and she's hot.

together we are sizzling-dazzling hot (lol. :))

• ATCHIE

traces back my chinese roots. this term is exclusive for my siblings.

it means "big sister"

• MOM

to my baby jareie. a shi tzu which was given as a present during my college graduation. :)

• KRUNGY

by ranier, since we believed that we were siblings from the past (he is prince rainier and i am princess stephanie (both, of monaco), we both realized after some time that we are some sort of "krung krungs" for believing that. we started teasing each other that until it became a term of endearment.

• BUDDY

kamyl. :) originally "bodyshot" since it was the "term of the night" during our first bonding as friends. :)

• STEPHY LEI

to dao mitchie (mitch), cathy ren (cath), meijoan (jasmin) and san jonut (jonathan)

from our humanities (meteor garden version) final exam (play).

• BES

to jan :) a shared bestfriend of mine and of a person from the past ;)

• SIS

to cathy and buds

• ATE TEPS

to my nieces and nephews. :)

---

• MARE

to (my pare) kim

• ATE

to my baby yiam

• ATS

to julio

• TEPI

to jeff/munoy

• PRINCESS

to jeijei

• CUPPYCAKE

to gary

• STEPHERS

to cholo

• BESPREN

to angelo

---

• MULEY THUYEA

by warren (a former varsity player), my first crush during college

means "i love you" in english

• ISTEF NECK

from lou (also a former varsity player). :)

• AI

from seph

a chinese word that means "love" in english.

---

a song from MY past.

This isn't goodbye,

even as I watch you leave,

this isn't goodbye

I swear I won't cry,

even as tears fill my eyes,

I swear I won't cry

Any other girl,

I'd let you walk away

Any other girl,

I'm sure I'd be ok

Tell me what makes a man

Wanna give you all his heart

Smile when you're around

And cry when you're apart

If you know what makes a man

Wanna love you the way I do

Girl you gotta let me know

So I can get over you

What makes her so right?

Is it the sound of her laugh?

That look in her eyes?

When do you decide?

She is the dream that you seek

That force in your life

When you apologize,

no matter who was wrong

When you get on your knees

if that would bring her home

Tell me what makes a man

Wanna give you all his heart

Smile when you're around

And cry when you're apart

If you know what makes a man

Wanna love you the way I do

Girl you gotta let me know

So that I can get over you

Other girls will come along,

they always do

But what's the point when all I ever want is you,

tell me

Tell me what makes a man

Wanna give you all his heart

Smile when you're around

And cry when you're apart

If you know what makes a man

Wanna love you the way I do

Girl you gotta let me know..... (let me know)

Girl you gotta let me know..... (wooo)

So I can get over you

*a very memorable song from my past. :) miss him. miss everything about him. miss US. the way he made me feel so important, so beautiful, so irreplaceable. i'm happy we are both happy now. :) i'll always be thankful for having an angel in him. we'd always love and look after each other. until we see each other again (after death) as real angels in heaven. and then we'll meet each other again in our nextlife - make each day count. make it OURS. :)

so happy. :)

slightly cracked. :P

12:19am

Stephanie
yea
y?

12:21am

Joan Jasmin

dont tell him im talking to u...
he asked about u...
i told him ur a spoiled brat
and that ur the sweetest person in the world....

12:22am

Stephanie
haha. ang sama mo. well, TRUE :)

12:22am

Joan Jasmin
especially to ur TRUE friends
(", )

*a good friend is someone who believes that you are a good egg - even though she knows that you are slightly cracked.

heartless. :P

12:00am

Joan Jasmin
akin kc, i asked if interview ung nxt meeting namin, they literally said no...

12:01am

Stephanie
ano daw?
haha

12:01am

Joan Jasmin
they told me na its alrady for our job offer

12:01am

Stephanie
ang gulo nila

12:01am

Joan Jasmin
yeah

12:01am

Stephanie
ahh. bka in my case. they're offering me an anterview. hahaha. lol

12:01am

Joan Jasmin
d last time i was short listed for 5j, its the last interview after that, then k na
malamang near the finish line ka na din,,, gudluck

12:02am

Stephanie
haha. gudluck nga :D
pero i feel like studying pa :P

12:03am

Joan Jasmin
hehehe
i know...
u ? work?
hahahaha

12:03am

Stephanie
hahaha
such a mean girl!

*a conversation between true friends (over facebook).

so mayabang. so true. so heartless. so caring. so rude, yet sounds so sweet.

love u always jas:)

this song is mine. :)

*this song was played both on my hs and college graduation. so memorable :)

I have often dreamed

Of a far-off place

Where a hero's welcome

Will be waiting for me

Where the crowds will cheer

When they see my face

And a voice keeps saying

This is where I'm meant to be

I'll be there someday

I can go the distance

I will find my way

If I can be strong

I know ev'ry mile

Will be worth my while

When I go the distance

I'll be right where I belong

Down an unknown road

To embrace my fate

Though that road may wander

It will lead me to you

And a thousand years

Would be worth the wait

It might take a lifetime

But somehow I'll see it through

And I won't look back

I can go the distance

And I'll stay on track

No, I won't accept defeat

It's an uphill slope

But I won't lose hope

Till I go the distance

And my journey is complete

But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part

A hero's strength is measured by his heart

Like a shooting star

I will go the distance

I will search the world

I will face its heart

I dont care how far

I can go the distance

Till I find my hero's welcome

Waiting In your arms

I will search the world

I will face its harms

Till I find mt hero's welcome

Waiting in your arms

the impossible dream.

To dream the impossible dream

To fight the unbeatable foe

To bear with unbearable sorrow

To run where the brave dare not go
To right the unrightable wrong

To love pure and chaste from afar

To try when your arms are too weary

To reach the unreachable star
This is my quest

To follow that star

No matter how hopeless

No matter how far
To fight for the right

Without question or pause

To be willing to march into Hell

For a heavenly cause
And I know if I'll only be true

To this glorious quest

That my heart will lie peaceful and calm

When I'm laid to my rest
And the world will be better for this

That one man, scorned and covered with scars

Still strove with his last ounce of courage

To reach the unreachable star

buddy's w.o.w. :)

"mnsan tlga s takot nteng msaktan, nkawgwa tau ng mga desisy0n dat we thot cus spare us from being hurt. un pla, ung mga bgay na dpat sna ngtake tau ng risk, un pla mkkpgpsaya sten., ktamo nga nman nga2wa ng takot."

Sender:
kamyl mendoza
+69915*******

Recieved:
12:26:07am
1-Jul-2009

good&bad.

"what's good about saying nothing is that you lessen the tendency to hurt others.

the bad thing is, you never really realize how keeping quiet hurts you."

but id still choose the second one. :)

stupidity makes me lol.

*got this from the book i borrowed from my sister.
(these are true answers of contestants from different game shows). :)

saang prutas nanggaling ang apple pie?
sa mangga

kung ang ubo ay sa bibig, ano naman ang sa ilong?
vicks

ano ang kulay ng red carpet?
asul

saan isinusuot ang basketball jersey?
sa paa

anong nationality ng sanggol na may amang Filipino Catholic at protestanteng ina?
american

sa snow white and the seven dwarfs, sinong duwende ang laging masaya?
duwende

ano ang ginagamit ng mga eskimo sa halikan?
dila

ilan ang paa ng pilay na pusa?
tatlo

anong tawag sa isdang hindi bilasa?
tuyo

anong letra sa filipino alphabet ang nasa gitna ng T at W?
u. v.

ano sa pilipino ang watermelon?
melon

may dalawang baboy sa kulungan. tumalon ang isa. ilan ang paa ng isang baboy?
isa pa rin

ano ang malambot na bahagi sa ulo ng sanggol?
batok

sa anong bansa nakatira ang mga hindu?
hindunesia

ano ang isinusuot ng taong walang buhok?
kalbo (*fave ko!)

ano ang english ng ampalaya?
asparagus

kung manicure sa kamay, ano naman ang sa paa?
kuko

ano ang nasa gitna ng donut?
palaman

merong 4 na seasons - spring, fall, winter, summer. kelan nahuhulog ang mga dahon?
sa storm

ano ang ingles ng "hinlalaki"?
thumbmark

prodigal daughter. :P

call me the "prodigal daughter". whether it is the issue of alleged "bangs garcia" poser or the reported "backstabber", "bitch" and "lowlife" that had my name making it's way to your thoughts, mouths and efforts, this former cheerleader is still shouting "fight. fight. fight." when it comes to proving detractors wrong and surviving the forgettable memories. :)

fortune cookie says:

"all the troubles you have will pass away very quickly."

just a few more thoughts.

• of course money isn't everything. coz there's always mastercard and visa.
• learn from the mistakes of others. you can't live long enough to make all of them.
• a successful man is one who can earn more than his woman spend.
• a successful woman is one who can find such a man.

i like.

"i like that i don't know where i am going.

i like that i am a work in progress."

trapped by perfection.

i am trapped by perfection. like a plant grown genetically tortured into a rarefield pattern of growth, i have no room for mistakes, bad ideas and a wrong decision.

but i live in a state of exhausting flux, where there is no such thing as a flat tableau - emotionally, mentally or physically - where anything can happen.

reynaldo cruz (a criminology graduate who opted to settle for a number of family businesses) and susan cruz (a certified public accountant who earns more or less a million per month) are certainly real and they express in their work a very genuine aspect of reality. but in another sense, they are expected to have children as nearly perfect as they are.

in a world where my parents' images are frightenly perfect, what's an ordinary girl to do?

i never planned to disappear. my goal was a modest one: to be perfect (just like them). but something, some unexpected thing went wrong.